Dreamers of the Day

"All men dream, but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that all was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes, and make it possible." -T.E. Lawrence, "The Seven Pillars of Wisdom"

Monday, December 04, 2006

Where I Am At

It has been difficult to put into words where I have been internally the past few weeks, but C.S. Lewis has said it very nicely in a book I finished this week...The Problem of Pain.

"…At first I am overwhelmed, and all my little happinessess look like broken toys. Then, slowly and reluctantly, bit by bit, I try to bring myself into the frame of mind that I should be in at all times. I remind myself that all these toys were never intended to posses my heart, that my true good is in another world and my only real treasure is Christ. And perhaps, by God’s grace, I succeed and for a day or two become a creature consciously dependent on God and drawing its strength from the right sources. But the moment the threat is withdrawn, my whole nature leaps back to the toys: I am even anxious, God forgive me, to banish from my mind the only thing that supported me under the threat because it is now associated with the misery of those few days. Thus the terrible necessity of tribulation is only too clear. God has had me for but forty-eight hours and then only by dint of taking everything else away from me. Let Him but sheathe that sword for a moment and I behave like a puppy when the hated bath is over—I shake myself as dry as I can and race of to reacquire my comfortable dirtiness, if not in the nearest manure heap, at least in the nearest flower bed. And that is why tribulations cannot cease until God either sees us remade or sees that our remaking is now hopeless.”

5 Comments:

At 9:02 AM, Blogger Trey said...

I needed to hear that right at this moment. No sooner, no later, but right now. Thanks for sharing. :)

Are you settling into your house?

 
At 4:05 PM, Blogger Jen said...

excellent!!

(pain sucks)

 
At 7:44 AM, Blogger Creth said...

remade.

for sure

 
At 11:30 AM, Anonymous Jon said...

That's funny. I am at a similar place. We must be twins.

 
At 11:25 AM, Blogger Creth said...

Jon.

you are NOT Jason's twin.

at this very moment I am contacting the proper authorities of Texas to LEGALLY make ME Jason's TWIN.

so there

 

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